Distancing #55: The Devil & God Are Raging Inside Me

Suffering from a variety of obsessive-compulsive disorder that goes by the clinical name “scrupulosity,” I spent ages twelve through fourteen in a state of religious paranoia, trying to avoid divine punishment by nervously carried out rituals—repeated prayers, meticulous consultation of holy texts. Engaged in the never-ending work of forestalling or correcting sinfulness and impurity, I missed the pop-punk phase endemic to the early-aughts teenage experience. I had little use for songs about girls, and even less for songs about emotions. I expended a great deal of energy avoiding both. 

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