Three Delays

Three Delays, itself multiply delayed by the author’s thirteen-year hiatus from fiction writing, during which time he instead wrote some very fine poetry collections (Heroin and Other Poems, etc.), contains the following paragraph:

So this is what it’s like, we said, meaning everything. We’d had years of wild love. You could come around to our back door and ask for lessons, but we wouldn’t give them to you. We weren’t stingy, we were just busy. Her face—was too much for me. Love leeching my heart to pulp. The rind never had time to grow back. Each day like the first day in the fucking Garden of Eden, each a day where you started over from the top with a different woman, always the same woman, named Alice, wife of Billy. We’d had years of what everybody else was dying to get. Every day I had enough of her. Every day I had to get some more. Now she sleeps, resting on her side, her face angled into eternity. I liked to wake her up just enough to bring her back to the world. I liked to do it more than once. “I’m not your toy,” she said, but she was, toy and dream and rest, as the poet says—golem, rapid transit device, Checkpoint Charlie, mistral, my day at the beach. In the Blue Ridge we used to get high sitting at the kitchen table in our bungalow—that was how the last story started. In the afternoons we got high and took walks through the woods down to the creek where we stripped naked and bathed in the cold water, sometimes arguing, sometimes sullen, shocked by each other still, rageous, terribly frightened, an inch away from a fit sometimes, an attack of fury and hatred that would cover over our terror, our powerlessness, the fear we had of arriving nowhere holding nothing. The hemlocks dripped their secret elixirs upon us, the moss was damp like secret hair and the rocks blackly glistened. We were never at home on the earth. Not for a minute. Love—call it love—made us forget this, dragged this knowledge down, put it under the ground awhile.

I recognize that I’m using up much of my review with this quotation, but it’s so good, as are so many passages in this novel—this religious tract, this grabbing-of-your-lapels, this psychotic rant, this romance that is larger...